Friends

I'm feelin' sleepy but I have some errands to run later. So I'd blog anyway.

It's been about 2 centuries since I started making friends. As we grow up, not only does our lives get complicated. Everything else does too. Including friendship. I have no idea why but sometimes, I just could not be frank to some of my friends. To me, being friends means being honest and open up to each other. But I find that.. a difficult task sometimes.

There's a friend of mine, whom I can never understand and I really don't quite understand why. Is the problem with me or is it with him? We've been friends for almost 3 years now. Sometimes, he gives me a feeling that we are what I call 'close friends' but sometimes, he gives me the feeling that we are not that close. He just leaves me confused all the time. This is not the first time that it happened to me. There has been a few past occasion when I felt this way. However, things always end up telling me that he is a close friend after all. Still, they repeat everytime like routines..

I don't even know if this is worth thinking or rambling about.
I'd like to say that it is just my own thinking. That I'm being sensitive. But the things he does and the responds I get when trying to talk to him sometimes.. just tells me that it really is happening.
We have some interest and group of friends in common. If there's any activities that interest us both, he'd call me along. That's when I feel that we are close friends. When we are together with a group of friends and I try to talk to him, he ignores me. Sometimes. That when I felt there's something wrong with our friendship. It just goes up and down. *sigh* So, tell me, what is the problem? What is actually going on? Tell me I'm just thinking too much.